Sunday, March 28, 2010

when we eat meat, we throw out the shell

I feel like I am the shell of what I once was.....
like I am a different person then before
people have changed me,
you changed me

why is it that when I listen to certain songs,
the memories of you hit me harder then ever...
but I can bet that nothing will ever hit you harder then
the memories of you, hit me

I look back on my life, and I honestly dont seem mistakes....
anymore

if someone random was to read this, they would have no clue what Im talking about
but if you read this.....

people these days......no one understands the mind of a young teenager anymore
all they think is we wanna go out do drugs and chill.....
I never wanted my life to be this way...things just happened

well anyways ....I feel like I dont know you anymore
so here you go
I want something
That's purer than the water
Like we were

It's not there now
Ineloquence and anger
Are all we have

Like Saturn's rings
An icy loop around me
Too hard to hold

Lash out first
At all the things we don't like
Or understand

And it's beginning to get to me
That I know more of the stars and sea
Than I do of what's in your head
Barely touching in our cold bed

Are you beginning to get get my point
That all this fighting with aching joints
It's doing nothing but tire us out
No one knows what this fight's about

The answer phone
The lonely sound of your voice
Frozen in time

I only need
The compass that you gave me
To guide me on

And it's beginning to get to me
That I know more of the stars and sea
Than I do of what's in your head
Barely touching in our cold bed

Are you beginning to get get my point
That all this fighting with aching joints
It's doing nothing but tire us out
No one knows what this fight's about

It's so thrilling but also wrong
Don't have to prove that you are so strong
'Cause I can carry you on my back
After our enemies attack

I tried to tell you before I left
But I was screaming under my breath
You are the only thing that makes sense
Just ignore all this present tense

We need to feel breathless with love
And not collapse under its weight
I'm gasping for the air to fill
My lungs with everything I've lost

We need to feel breathless with love
And not collapse under its weight
I'm gasping for the air to fill
My lungs with everything I've lost


.....I am finally beginning to see