sometimes , love can be your worst enemy.

sometimes, people just dont understand that, someone may still love someone in there past, but it doesnt mean they they cant go in and fill in the gap , that person has in there heart.

all though you may see it as a bad thing , its not, your filling the gap she left, and i know you are because i havent loved anyone the same way i have loved her, and your the only since then that has made me feel the same way.... and you are filling that gap and replacing her.... because I honestly do love you.

it just hit me....

the problem is not what I did or how I was acting.... well it kinda is but that no the point, I that im not straight forward with things.... I hid behind the words that I use, to keep the way I feel or the things I do from other people. If I was just more straight forward with everything I wouldnt be in the situation that I am in now and all the ones I have been in, in the past.

Im sorry, babe.

Were just ordinary people

John Legend is correct.

Were just ordinary people, we don’t know which way to go.

One thing I love but hate about myself now , is that whenever I find a song I really like, like this one, it helps me get through something that occurs in my life after I find it…… like before.

I really do love this song, John Legend is a brilliant man. I feel like his song connects with me , at this exact moment. There are two parts in his song that remind me of exactly how I feel right now. Well actually three but yeah im just put all the lyrics up then talk about them after.

Part One :

I hang up you call

We rise and we fall

And we feel like just walking away

As our love advances

We take second chances

Though it's not a fantasy

I Still want you to stay

This is actually my favorite part of the song….. but yeahhh, this reminds me of today. I think I have joined you on that rollercoaster that you have been on recently…. We have both gotten to the point today when we just wanted to just give up and walk away and forget about it. But we didn’t, or at least I didn’t want that to happen. I love you to much to let you just leave like that. But John is right, its not a fantasy but I still want you to stay. No relationship is ever “perfect”, and our is not either, but yet we still love eachother, I know we will work through this. As long as you love me the same way I love you

Part Two:

I know i misbehaved

And you made your mistakes

And we both still got room left to grow

And though love sometimes hurts

I still put you first

And we'll make this thing work

Yeah this is exactly how I feel right now. Love does sometimes hurt, but I still want you. And yeahhh using his exactly words “and we’ll make this thing work.” I swear the more I think about this song, the more it relates to exactly how I feel….. we are both still young and we have our whole lives ahead of us. And yeah I have made mistakes and “misbehaved” as the song says…. But were gonna make it through this ….I know we will.

Part three :

Maybe we'll live and learn

Maybe we'll crash and burn

Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,

maybe you'll return

Maybe another fight

Maybe we won't survive

But maybe we'll grow

We never know baby youuuu and I

As much as I don’t want to admit it, hes also right about this too. Life is full of maybes. No one is every completely sure of something til it actually happens. I really wish this wasn’t true. But it is. But like he says at the end…. We never know baby you and I. I just hope that maybe we will make it through everything in the end.

Well that is al I have to say for today. Good day to you

I love you , baby