You in a song

by Jason Reeves....

this is a song about how he wants to put someone in a song....not literally but figuratively...... but I wish I could do that with someone ...and I think she knows who she is :)

like the song says

I just wanna write you in a song
Put your smile on paper so you can sing along
I just wanna bottle the sun
Keep your light a secret I can find when you are gone...

I want you to be my light :)

...I really missed her this weekend.... especially because her mom took her phone away :/. I feel incomplete without her nowadays... like today, I only got to talk to her for a short while this morning :/ but right now I am talking to her and I feel like myself again :) and thats one thing I love the most about her....she brings out the real me :)

You know most people are supposed to be "terrified" of love as is the title of another Jason Reeves song, but I dont share that same view anymore...I mean, yeah sure I have before but not anymore....not with her.... I feel like, now, nothing bad is ever gonna happen between us :) and I love it

which brings me to another Jason Reeves song....someone somewhere. This is the first song I heard by him...I heard it last summer ...and yeah... I was really just looking for someone somewhere then...but I realized his song isnt about just looking for anyone...its about looking for that someone, somewhere "is looking right back at you" as he says in the song....I really enjoy this song now, especially since now I think I have found that someone :)

...theres one thing I just noticed now, the last time I truely know that I loved someone...music is how I expressed myself...not by writing it, but finding songs about how I was feeling and just listening to them over and over again, just because I can relate to them and it always brought me closer to the person...and I am doing that once again...I really miss that side of me :) ...Im glad you brought it back :)

I feel like I wanna keep writing about music, just because I have been listening to music so much lately and I have been getting songs stuck in my head left and right. I feel like last year when I listened to Marcos snow patrol CD for like 5 days straight and had almost all the songs memorized by the time I was done.....but this time its random songs, like a song by the kooks, called naive, idk why but its just catchy... I get some of the lyrics but some of the words they say are like wtf is that word :P.. but yet I still get what the song is about in a way, haha.

....I feel like theres a song is a song written about every single person in this world...Im still looking for the one for you, but I think I have found mine...somewhat or at least for the time being ...I actually loved this song a long time ago when I first heard it back in 8th grade, I had one line stuck in my head for like 2 months and I couldnt remember the name of the song till recently...I related to that one line the moment I heard it...and I felt like it was the soundtrack to my life at the time and still is somewhat...it was the whole rebellious feel that the song gave me....

Can't take the kid from the fight
take the fight from the kid
Sit back, relax
Sit back, relapse again

....You cant take the fight from this kid.

ohhh and people fail to see that they , themselves ....are the cause of all the pain...no someone else...

okay thats all im good :)

people theses days

...many people dont see that someones pain is another persons pleasure,

in the real world there is only win and lose, no tie.... you cannot restart or have a do-over

some people dont see that even though they have lost and know it....that they need to give up and move past the "game".

because in this case....I won.

honestly, cuz of all the stuff i have done to make me happy in the past and stuff that I used to make me forget my issues and make me happy....I really thought I had forgotten what happyness was....but I think now I finally know now....

people think that life is about studying and having a future...like in black hawk down... that one african guy says "americans live long dull meaningless lives" . I dont wanna live forever or even till I'm 100 ....its not about the quantity but the quality. I would rather live a life that is short but fucking amazing rather then live 100 years and do nothing in that time....I wanna travel the world, meet someone famous, make a name for myself, climb a mountain.....you get the point...to me, life is something worth living not something worth planning for.

they say your attitude determines your latitude

im high as motherfucker, fly as a motherfucker

I realized since I have stopped doing stuff, my life is a lot easier, I just feel relaxed and different...I still get random craving for things but im good.

im listening to tupac right now....I listen to his music a lot but every time i listen to it and really listen to it, I find some new life lesson he is trying to teach. its one thing I love about his music....there is stuff hidden when you first hear it, but obvious when your going thought the same thing he is trying to tell you. "dont blame me, I was given this world, I didnt make it"

tupac, saw this all coming,

well now, about the picture at the top.....I saw this on my friends tumblr....and the first thing I thought is....why would God question his own work....is like how a writer looks back on his book and is wtf when did I write this?... at church we are taught that man was created in the Image of God, maybe he is like us too... maybe God isnt perfect... but then again....what is perfect.... has something ever been perfect? ....well anyways thats a different topic.... why would God let us be the way he says we are?...is it cuz he created us so we wouldnt know what we have till we lose it? ....God is very mysterious and will do things we dont want to happen, happen...but he has a reason for all of this...

all I have to say now is.... live life the way its should be lived not the way you plan it

goodnight.

Thank You Ms.Kim!!!

“If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.”

this is the only thing I will ever thank Ms.Kim for.

I have 45 blogs but only 32, now 33 can be read by other people.

I tend to spend too much time ranting about people who dont matter anymore rather then writing about people that actual mean something to me so now instead of ranting about something im gonna write about someone who loves me.

I can honestly say that I do love Kristen, she is not only a good girlfriend but a great friend, she is always there for me, and I can tell her everything. when I talk to her I feel free and like anything or anybody can't effect me ....I get that feeling like things are way to perfect to be true but then I realize , this is my life, this is really happening :)

like that old saying goes, You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams , this is only true because of you..... I love that I spend time with you and just feel like a lil kid again :)

well im tired so ima go to bed....

goodnight i love you :)

I swear

If I go two for two, with ex-girlfriends becoming sluts, Ima smack the shit out of somebody

.....yup, I went two for two....at least in baseball thats a good average :)

I love how...

I love how , people can change randomly, and they just dont give a fuck about anything

I love how , today I traced all my recent issues back to one moment that night

I love how , I also realized what caused all my rebelliousness

I love how , right now the time I want to talk to someone, they dont want to talk to me

I love how , I thought my life was gonna be great now,

and its not......

I did what I needed to do

I just walked away

seeming like I left for another,

which in reality I did somewhat

my life is great

except im still grounded for sneaking out at 2 AM to go somewhere -___-

but yeah it was worth it

I really wanna get away though

...I rode my dads new bike today and I remembered the feeling of when I used to ride dirt bikes

it was the best feeling in the world....I felt as free as a bird

now ima go fly away

why?

I actually do feel bad , but yet at the same time

Its life....bitch needs to move on.... :P

...and I really need to stop reading her blog...its not good for me but ohh well what can I do :P

well anyways ...I just ordered new shoes and I just got dissed by my gf :P

haha yeah...

peace