today was....normal I think. I finally fell like everything is back to normal :P
I dont think im write about much but I dont know
I havent even started reading ferinhight 451 and I already have no idea whats going on. I hate reading. well other then english all my other classes went pretty smoothly today.
until open house. I think MAC hates me. He told my dad I could have an A in his class and now if I dont get an A im gonna be grounded for having a B+ what the hell!!! I still think landis is a NAZI he told my dad that went to germany for classes in college while I had to sit there and listen to them talk. Lin was okays they just talked about my sister mostly so I was off the hook. I tryed to avoid my other classes cuz I have bad grades in both of them :P and chalew was acctually gonna make me do sum kinda work on open house.
well tomarrow looks like its gonna be fun. its minimum day, were testing the towers in MAC, and im gonna go record my spanish project after skool. then ima go home and I really dont know about after that so yeah.
I think thats it for today....wow I just realized this blog has nothing to do with the title.
peacebewithyou
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
when life gives you lemons you....?
hmmm today was my first day back at skool since last friday it was kinda wierd but I missed most of my first 4 classes cuz I was making up CST testing :P I did what took most the rest off the skool about 6 hours in lest then 4. english and math(I hate reading).
well idk life still doesnt seem back to normal yet. It feels like theres still sumthing wrong. but I really dont know and dont really care anymore. Im just let things play out and see what happens hopefully God has good things in store for me.
after skool was kinda wierd and not normal. I got a ride home from chris. we had sum strange converstations in his car. but hes acctually a good drive he might go a lil bit to fast but hes still a good driver. ooo and we went to in n out but all i got was fries and a drink(I didnt have anymoney).
I have lost like so many pounds just from being sick :P Im down to like 141 I cant even remember the last time I weighed that much. but I lost a lot of muscles...not that I ever had that much to begin with :P well I think if I keep doing sit up and try and do pushups (tendonitis can use right arm) I think I could probably get into good shape...i think.
I really miss not playing baseball. It kinda sucks have to watch baseball on TV knowing that you cant play cuz of your arm :P well I did bat to day and It felt so good. even if I went to my game just to bat I would be happy but I cant. Its kinda hard to not play baseball when your whole life used to revolve around the sport. I used to have plan my weekend around baseball but now I have nothing to do :P but then now I have more free time and more time to go to church and do stuff with SLYM :D
well Ima just go listen to music and chill then go take a shower then go to bed.
peace be with you
well idk life still doesnt seem back to normal yet. It feels like theres still sumthing wrong. but I really dont know and dont really care anymore. Im just let things play out and see what happens hopefully God has good things in store for me.
after skool was kinda wierd and not normal. I got a ride home from chris. we had sum strange converstations in his car. but hes acctually a good drive he might go a lil bit to fast but hes still a good driver. ooo and we went to in n out but all i got was fries and a drink(I didnt have anymoney).
I have lost like so many pounds just from being sick :P Im down to like 141 I cant even remember the last time I weighed that much. but I lost a lot of muscles...not that I ever had that much to begin with :P well I think if I keep doing sit up and try and do pushups (tendonitis can use right arm) I think I could probably get into good shape...i think.
I really miss not playing baseball. It kinda sucks have to watch baseball on TV knowing that you cant play cuz of your arm :P well I did bat to day and It felt so good. even if I went to my game just to bat I would be happy but I cant. Its kinda hard to not play baseball when your whole life used to revolve around the sport. I used to have plan my weekend around baseball but now I have nothing to do :P but then now I have more free time and more time to go to church and do stuff with SLYM :D
well Ima just go listen to music and chill then go take a shower then go to bed.
peace be with you
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
TOnight
I will never forget tonight.
my last class of confirmation and one of the most touching.
I feel like that was the class that I need to change me back.
idk if ur every gonna read this but IM SORRY :( i acted like a jerk and i shouldnt have
you deserve better then me. I was wrong for thinking what I was thinking when I got mad. I was stupid for being so selfcenter like that. idk if I can tell why I get mad yet and I hope I dont have to. cuz the truth is that im nothing without you and I think without you I would never get better. like you said that one night me helping you helps me :D. and I hope you will always be there for me to help.
well the truth is that I brought you this far in your religion and everytime you really had fun with God. I wasnt there. and I wouldnt except it. so I tryed to fight it and I was wrong to. I finally see it now. that even though I lead you all the way there You stepped up and went away from me and embrased God without me. and it made me mad that I couldnt be there with you.
the whole reason Im saying this is cuz of the medition I went though in my class today. It was about a guy that got into a fight with GOD/a girl. and that guy realized he was nothing with out God there by his side. and it the end he went running to God realizing he made the biggest mistake in his life by leaving God. and I didnt want to make the same mistake.
I hope the right person reads this.
peace be with you
my last class of confirmation and one of the most touching.
I feel like that was the class that I need to change me back.
idk if ur every gonna read this but IM SORRY :( i acted like a jerk and i shouldnt have
you deserve better then me. I was wrong for thinking what I was thinking when I got mad. I was stupid for being so selfcenter like that. idk if I can tell why I get mad yet and I hope I dont have to. cuz the truth is that im nothing without you and I think without you I would never get better. like you said that one night me helping you helps me :D. and I hope you will always be there for me to help.
well the truth is that I brought you this far in your religion and everytime you really had fun with God. I wasnt there. and I wouldnt except it. so I tryed to fight it and I was wrong to. I finally see it now. that even though I lead you all the way there You stepped up and went away from me and embrased God without me. and it made me mad that I couldnt be there with you.
the whole reason Im saying this is cuz of the medition I went though in my class today. It was about a guy that got into a fight with GOD/a girl. and that guy realized he was nothing with out God there by his side. and it the end he went running to God realizing he made the biggest mistake in his life by leaving God. and I didnt want to make the same mistake.
I hope the right person reads this.
peace be with you
Thinking, just thinking
Im beginning to think staying home from school a second day is a good thing. Im still sick, I need this time away to think, and im helping my mom clean. the main thing im getting from be home and not at skool is getting to think. thats all I have been doing is thinking. not just about one thing but everything.
I think I am realizing that I havent lost you and I dont think I will cuz no matter how bad the fight/argument got I couldnt get mad at you. I couldnt get mad at you sumthing inside of me stopped me and calmed me down. you know I was thinking of that question my sister asked me and I think we would still be together. cuz even though we might fight and agrue and disagree sumtimes in the end everything is alright...I think. well I hope that in the end things work out between us cuz I hate fighting it kills me inside a lil everytime we do.
bootleg movies make a not so funnay movie funnay as hell. yesterday i saw observe and report. it was an okay movie could have been funnier. but what really made it funnay was the ppls that you can hear talking and laughing. and the guys cell fone conversation. I think all those made was funnier then the movie itself.
well I need to go clean my room :P
peace out
I think I am realizing that I havent lost you and I dont think I will cuz no matter how bad the fight/argument got I couldnt get mad at you. I couldnt get mad at you sumthing inside of me stopped me and calmed me down. you know I was thinking of that question my sister asked me and I think we would still be together. cuz even though we might fight and agrue and disagree sumtimes in the end everything is alright...I think. well I hope that in the end things work out between us cuz I hate fighting it kills me inside a lil everytime we do.
bootleg movies make a not so funnay movie funnay as hell. yesterday i saw observe and report. it was an okay movie could have been funnier. but what really made it funnay was the ppls that you can hear talking and laughing. and the guys cell fone conversation. I think all those made was funnier then the movie itself.
well I need to go clean my room :P
peace out
Monday, April 27, 2009
SICK
Im home sick today :( my throat was killing me this morning and I was coffing like crazy last night.
I have been thinking alot about what happend last night and idk what im gonna do. This just happend to fast for me to do anything good about and I just snapped and flipped out. but I think I have changed idk I dont feel the same. Im just worried at its to late ant that I might have already lost you. I kinda saw this coming last time we really talked about this. I knew that sumthing was wrong and from that moment on I knew things could never be the same. I tryed so hard to fight it but I cant stop what I already know is gonna happen.
I dont even know if I can do anything anymore cuz everything I do, see, and hear reminds me of you. I need to find a whole to hide in and never come out of :P
Im worried that in a couple of years im gonna look back on this and wonder if im doing the right thing. cuz right now I dont think I am.
yesterday I listened to a tupac song(keep ya head up). now I have always been a tupac fan ever since the first time I heard his songs. he is one of the few rappers that I like. cuz to me he is rapping about stuff that we can all relate to. unlike other rappers rapping about crap like money and girls all those rappers are doing is making this world a bad place to live. like what tupac says "what happend to all the marvin gays that used to sing to me making me feel like black was the thing to be" (im not black) but I can still relate to this. tupac went out there and showed everyone that they werent alone. everyones familys fight, no ones perfect. I have always wondered what the world would be like if people like tupac were still alive. but I think God has taken him from us for a reason. cuz we never know what we got til its gone.
I think this is good for now
peace be with you
R.I.P. tupac shakur
I have been thinking alot about what happend last night and idk what im gonna do. This just happend to fast for me to do anything good about and I just snapped and flipped out. but I think I have changed idk I dont feel the same. Im just worried at its to late ant that I might have already lost you. I kinda saw this coming last time we really talked about this. I knew that sumthing was wrong and from that moment on I knew things could never be the same. I tryed so hard to fight it but I cant stop what I already know is gonna happen.
I dont even know if I can do anything anymore cuz everything I do, see, and hear reminds me of you. I need to find a whole to hide in and never come out of :P
Im worried that in a couple of years im gonna look back on this and wonder if im doing the right thing. cuz right now I dont think I am.
yesterday I listened to a tupac song(keep ya head up). now I have always been a tupac fan ever since the first time I heard his songs. he is one of the few rappers that I like. cuz to me he is rapping about stuff that we can all relate to. unlike other rappers rapping about crap like money and girls all those rappers are doing is making this world a bad place to live. like what tupac says "what happend to all the marvin gays that used to sing to me making me feel like black was the thing to be" (im not black) but I can still relate to this. tupac went out there and showed everyone that they werent alone. everyones familys fight, no ones perfect. I have always wondered what the world would be like if people like tupac were still alive. but I think God has taken him from us for a reason. cuz we never know what we got til its gone.
I think this is good for now
peace be with you
R.I.P. tupac shakur
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Life
this is my first blog EVER!!!
Im just wondering why I didn't ever blog before. I always have stuff on my mind that I would love to get out to the rest of the world. and a blog is the best way to do that so yeah thats why im here :D
My life is very confusing right now. Im not really sure what to do about anything. but I know if I let God lead me ill do the right thing....I hope.
today: I went to youth group. It was a bitter sweet thing :P cuz It was are last youth group in that building and they are tearing it down :(. that made me think about how much that one little room has made me change for the better and how many other ppls it had effected too. I was reliving all the youth groups i have been too and all the memorys and friends i have made in that room.
I have been thinking alot about what im gonna do with someone. Idk i just think when ever that thought goes through my head...i know that doesnt make sence. Im worried im gonna lose you and thats the last thing I want to do.
well thats it for today
Peace be with you
Im just wondering why I didn't ever blog before. I always have stuff on my mind that I would love to get out to the rest of the world. and a blog is the best way to do that so yeah thats why im here :D
My life is very confusing right now. Im not really sure what to do about anything. but I know if I let God lead me ill do the right thing....I hope.
today: I went to youth group. It was a bitter sweet thing :P cuz It was are last youth group in that building and they are tearing it down :(. that made me think about how much that one little room has made me change for the better and how many other ppls it had effected too. I was reliving all the youth groups i have been too and all the memorys and friends i have made in that room.
I have been thinking alot about what im gonna do with someone. Idk i just think when ever that thought goes through my head...i know that doesnt make sence. Im worried im gonna lose you and thats the last thing I want to do.
well thats it for today
Peace be with you
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