SICK

Im home sick today :( my throat was killing me this morning and I was coffing like crazy last night.

I have been thinking alot about what happend last night and idk what im gonna do. This just happend to fast for me to do anything good about and I just snapped and flipped out. but I think I have changed idk I dont feel the same. Im just worried at its to late ant that I might have already lost you. I kinda saw this coming last time we really talked about this. I knew that sumthing was wrong and from that moment on I knew things could never be the same. I tryed so hard to fight it but I cant stop what I already know is gonna happen.

I dont even know if I can do anything anymore cuz everything I do, see, and hear reminds me of you. I need to find a whole to hide in and never come out of :P

Im worried that in a couple of years im gonna look back on this and wonder if im doing the right thing. cuz right now I dont think I am.



yesterday I listened to a tupac song(keep ya head up). now I have always been a tupac fan ever since the first time I heard his songs. he is one of the few rappers that I like. cuz to me he is rapping about stuff that we can all relate to. unlike other rappers rapping about crap like money and girls all those rappers are doing is making this world a bad place to live. like what tupac says "what happend to all the marvin gays that used to sing to me making me feel like black was the thing to be" (im not black) but I can still relate to this. tupac went out there and showed everyone that they werent alone. everyones familys fight, no ones perfect. I have always wondered what the world would be like if people like tupac were still alive. but I think God has taken him from us for a reason. cuz we never know what we got til its gone.

I think this is good for now
peace be with you


R.I.P. tupac shakur